I was not prepared. Not in the least. 20 hours (minimally) on eight minutes of audio. Yes, I am tired. No, I’ve learned nothing.
Anyway, my fight with social media continues. HOW DO PEOPLE ALWAYS HAVE STUFF TO SAY?! Like, I see a comment and people have responses and feedback and my deepest thought about a billion different things is just…lol. Like, yeah, you’re totally right, this is super witty and entertaining, but I do not know you and do not wish to engage in a conversation. I’d like to leave a li’l heart and dip, if you please.
What I do answer, I take a very long time in doing so. Like 15 rewrites and then a 75% chance of deletion. I know a lot of people say the internet makes you feel closer to people than you really are, but I have a much easier time communicating when I can see people face to face.
Face to face you can be charming, read the room, razzle dazzle your way through an ill-thought out sentence and, you know, just have opinions and have people question them and have a dialogue. Like…an actual dialogue, so much of the internet feels like talking at people, rather than with them.
I know it doesn’t have to be this way, people who are good at it, somehow overcome this but…
This is killing me. How do you social media, and, like, why? I’m so bad at it, how do people know how to work this?!
I’d say this is where my podcast will frickin’ die, but oddly enough, I’m doing something, right. Like something because my subscriber count is steadily ticking upwards and my views (downloads only) have been increasing per episode. So, somebody is talking about me, I’m gaining some sort of popularity. But I’ll be damned if I can tell you how or what the hell I did right. Maybe the show just speaks for itself??
I’m trying, but like…maybe I’ll just go to post something once or twice a week or so. Just…lock the stupid accounts and post sporadically.